Cooper is our third child, he has two older brothers Hayden 9 years old & James 2 years old. He was due on the 25th of August 2007, which to us was perfect as Hayden is the 25th of March and James is the 25th December - Our third and final and he would also be on the 25th. Unfortunatly on the 30th of June 2007 I started getting cramps, thinking they were branxton hicks i tried to ignore them, but they got worse and i knew something wasnt right. We went to the hospital, were they checked me over and relized he was in trouble. They performed an emergency C section. When i woke the next day, all i could think was where is my boy, looking back everybody's faces told me but i chose not to believe them. Everyone kept saying he wouldnt make it through the night, im not sure if it was the medication from the operation or if i just didnt want to hear them but i just smiled and said he was beautiful and it would be all right. I was wrong, after everything started to wear off, i relized how serious it was. My placenta had completly fallen apart and he had died before they got to him, it took them 8 minutes but they revived him, unfortunatly though it was to late he had absolutly no brain functions at all. It took two agonising days to make our decision, but on the third day he had made the choice for us and had started internal bleeding that couldnt be stopped. Before it got to painful for him (even though he was fully medicated) we chose to turn off the life support. It was the hardest day of our lifes and something that im sure we ALL relive on a daily basis. Asking ourselves if it was the right thing to do, what else could we have done, should we have done something anything different? All questions we will never get answers to. But our biggest question and anyone who has lost a child will ask themselves the same thing WHY? This is the most I have ever written about Cooper. I can talk about him all day long but have struggled to ever put anything on paper, there is alot more to Cooper's story from both before and after i hope this is only the beginning and i can start to share more of it in days, weeks, months to come. Thankyou for taking the time to read Coopers Story i hope he holds a place in your heart that way his memory can always live on in our world.
Thankyou Amber Wood.